a pregnancy after a miscarriage can be so scary and stressful. I have tried hard to be positive and let the joy of a new life growing inside be something to rejoice about. But these 18 weeks have been hard. We have had a lot of scary moments and a LOT of joyous ones.
I might be in my second trimester, but morning sickness didn't completely get the memo that it was suppose to be gone by now. But its not that bad; its only occasionally...I mean I did have to run out of the church service on Sunday morning, but that in of itself is a blessing and a curse. I mean I hate being sick, but if that means my baby is growing and is healthy I will take it.
Another Scary thing was I started bleeding at about 13 weeks, FREAKED ME OUT...went to the Doctor and he discovered I had developed placenta Previa...It usually takes several months to heal and correct itself, but by Gods grace the bleeding stopped almost immediately and at our 16 week check it seems to have corrected itself, which is much faster than predicted.
In the last two weeks I have started to feel the little one move around and it has been wonderful. My stomach is expanding so much faster than it did with Lilly (even though my weight gain hasn't been much) It just that my muscles know what to do this go around and I have such a tiny torso that out is all it can do and ALSO this baby is already bigger than Lilly ever thought about being. I mean She is right on the mark size wise, we might have a 7lb new born, imagine that. I saw a friend at the Drs office a couple of weeks ago and she is due in July, Me October...and I swear I look much bigger than her, but then again she is Tall and skinny; Her little one has plenty of room to expand inwardly.
We are excited about this little one...and I cannot wait to hold her in my arms and nurse her at my breast. and Even though Lilly doesn't quite understand that there is a baby in my tummy, she is already a great help and she is BABY obsessed. We kept Rheya Kemp one day last week and all Lilly could talk about was the Baby, she wanted to hold and hug the baby...I think this poor little one will be getting so much LOVE from her Big sister she wont know what to do.
